It feels like ages since I’ve logged in here. Life sort of happened and I’ve been too preoccupied that I didn’t feel the need to write much. ‘Till today. But before I’m ready to share today’s, here’s something I wrote last month.
I’ve always known it, but I think the past week was a good reminder that life really doesn’t wait around for you. There’s always that little part of us that likes to believe that if we leave and come back, everything will feel familiar and it’ll be like nothing’s changed. Going back to the city I always felt comfortable in, didn’t feel as how I expected it. It was a little bit like I no longer fit in and the people around me had moved on. Of course, no one in their right mind expects the world to be put on hold to wait for their return. Yet it can’t be denied — the disheartening reaction. But all in all, I realize that it’s a good thing. It’s good to see people moving along rather than being stuck. It’s good to see people changing rather than staying afraid of the inevitable. I mean, that’s life, right? To keep moving forward? I remembered how many people come in and out of my life. It’s always hard sensing the end of a relationship, whether it’s a friend, significant other, or even family. And the “end” might be sudden, temporary, or very gradual. It’s our decision whether or not we fight for that person. That decision will come naturally. It’s good to constantly remind ourselves that the right people will stay in your life. Maybe that person, you saw in your future, but never forget that they’ll change. As will you. If the both of you don’t fit with each other anymore, that’s ok. What might’ve felt like home at one point can feel like undiscovered terrains. In the end, you’ll find a new home.